The definition of the modern married cuck

Hey guys.

I wouldn’t say this is an open relationship but I don’t know what else to call it because I’m hoping it’s only a 1 time thing.

So my fiancée and I have been together a little over a year now. We also have a child who is a few months old (yes we moved fast lol) we were talking the other day and I mentioned how it might turn me on if she had sex with someone else. We tried this before like 4 or 5 months ago but as the time approached it made me sadder and sadder so we stopped. She was a bit upset that I said yes and then no but we moved on.

I’ve never really been able to get the thought of it out of my head though. So we discussed it again the other day and I told her to look on Facebook and Instagram for someone who she’s attracted to and we will try it out. She found someone and he was down. Everything was okay. But as the time to doing it is getting closer I don’t know how I feel anymore. She wants to do it really bad now but I don’t like it anymore I don’t think. She said she’s happy because she has never had anyone trust her this much in a relationship and she loves that I trust her this much. She did say that she might really like it and want to continue doing it which worries me so much. But then she said maybe she just wants to get it out of her system because it’s just a kink that she has being able to have sex with another guy while in a relationship but not getting into trouble for it. She said it has nothing to do with the guy we found it’s just the idea of something new that excites her. So I’m not gonna cancel it now because I’ve already done this once. And I told her how I’m feeling and she said that I have nothing to worry about whatsoever and to just not worry. Last time this happened she said it was okay if I didn’t want to do it because it wouldn’t feel right for her because she loves me and being with someone else wouldn’t feel right and she didn’t even know if she’d go through with it. This time she’s really excited for it and she said that her opinions have changed since last time.

The thought of it did turn me on but now I just have a pit in my stomach knowing the event is coming. And we did make rules and agreed on them.

• Limited contact beforehand and no deep conversations and such and no contact afterwards, she blocks him on all social media
• no exploring of fetishes on his end or her end, just sex
• She spends as little time as possible there before hand and leaves immediately after, we figured the whole situation shouldn’t take more than 2 hours
• obviously a condom and her carefully checking the condom afterwards
• if he says anything about our relationship beforehand or tries to badmouth me in any way she leaves immediately with no sex given and if he tries to say anything afterwards she shuts him down “if you’re ever single hmu” anything like that.

I do trust her and I know she’s loyal. She said that she’s not going to catch feelings but simply by barley talking to someone and then having sex one time. Which I believe I doubt she’s just gonna fall in Love with this dude. She always shuts guys down immediately who try to hit on her or anything so trust isn’t an issue. I guess what I’m struggling with is just the fact that I may feel betrayed and that another guy is going to get her body even if it is just for an hour or whatever. I’m just nervous about the whole thing altogether. I also don’t want this to ruin us. I don’t want her to really like this and want to keep doing it and then resent me because I don’t want her to. I don’t want our relationship to suffer any due to this. I’m not saying I’m the good guy in any of this I did bring it up twice but I regret doing that now.

When we do it, after gets home from it we are going to sit down and have a long talk about everything and we have both promised each other that we will be 100 percent honest about how we feel about the whole thing.

What do you guys think?