Idk if this is the place but i feel like i'll get a lot of bullshit from any other sub. Plus MGTOW makes me feel somewhat happy.

So i used to date this girl a couple years ago, before i even knew about redpill, MGTOW, or any of that stuff. I was a tradcon to the max and wanted nothing more than a girlfriend and eventually a wife. So we hit it off and about a month in she started playing some stupid fucking mind games. I was unaware of all these things that women would do. About 2 months in she cheated on me with another guy. She gave me the whole bs about how she was "sooooo sorry" and "wOuLd NeVeR dO iT aGaIn" so i forgave her and hoped we could grow past it. In total i stayed with her for 2 years! In that entire time she would emotionally abuse me daily and make everything my fault. She would mentally abuse me regularly and blast my fucking ears if i didnt comply with her shitty demands (list of demands at the end). She would sexually abuse me every week at least regardless what i said and i could never talk about it because no one believed me when i actually did. Hell, im fucking lucky i still had my virginity by the end of it. The only form of abuse she didnt use was physical and thats because it would be obvious i assume. She ended up cheating on me over 30 times with 14 different people (12 guys and 2 girls). I know i shouldve left a lot sooner than i did.

Now im single and much happier. I've been going MGTOW for almost a year and making as much money as i possibly can. The main problem however is that those thoughts and memories of how bad it got still come to greet me once in a while and its hard to deal with. If theres any MGTOW men that could give me some advice on how to truly let go of something like this id greatly appreciate it.

List of Demands: Must stay on a video call with her once i get home and while i sleep at all times. Must sleep with the lights on. Must ask to go to the bathroom or anything that id need to leave the camera for. Must never make any sarcastic or rude comments to her. Must only pay attention to her on video calls with the exception of homework. Must never play games with friends. Must never talk back. Must video call during family activities. Basically, if i have a connection. I gotta call.

Thats all i can think of right now. Im tired and my mind is not thinking the best so sorry for the eyesore of a post.