Every since I was in the 6th grade I resented my mother. She called me a failure a loser retarded and said I would end up just like my brother (he went to jail and has 3 kids but isn’t married)

My mother would say the nasty shit me and it always hurt deep down. She always said shit to me because occasionally I did not want to go to practice because I hated the sport I played It got to the point where my dad would try to defend me and she would just insult him and say very hurtful things to him that were personal.

She never supported me and always criticized me.

My freshman year of high school I fucked up my knees real bad swimming and she just said it was growing pains and to walk it off. All my coaches told me to see a doctor she wouldn’t let me go. It got to the point where it hurt so much just to walk.

I’m a sophomore now and I still deal with knee pain. Recently I started feeling a lot of pain in my arms and shoulders. Likely from swimming but my mom swears it’s from video games and won’t take me to a doctor. It hurts so much just trying to perform basic task and it’s not helping from all her mental abuse.

My mom did so much shit to me and it’s just getting to the point where I just can’t anymore. A few times now I broke down crying in my room asking why am I suffering like this. I get good grades I try my best in swimming yet I still suffer. I do everything that is asked of me and yet I always get the short end of the stick.

My dad doesn’t even bother trying to help me anymore and my sister just acts like everything is fine. I don’t know who to turn to.

I’m in so much pain and I just want it to stop