I was a lifelong atheist who was terrified of death and the world in general. My entire life has been losing: I moved here (US) from India (born Hindu) at three years old and was a total wuss. I was always thinner than everyone else and considerably less attractive than everyone else (horrendous nose). I moved around for a bit before moving to a small town called Cupertino and continued losing. I started around high school gaining confidence but then I had a psychotic episode and became deeply depressed. I had to go to community college (I'm transferring this year) but I've been feeling really lucky for the past several years. I discovered MGTOW, Red Pill, Trump won! (always really right wing but more Ron Paul-ish), and started feeling confident! I believe in God and I know that's not very popular around here but I was wondering if I was alone and if this path was acceptable (I'm a deist and don't believe in an afterlife). By the way, I love all the atheist and agnostics here and you got me through a time I was considering ending it all. No disrespect! Peace.