For 5 years I have been fighting my logical desire for peace in life with the emotional want of a woman by my side conflicting with it every step of the way. Relationshit after relationshit. I always had a bit of doubt in the back of my mind whether this path was right for me. Never married though and I was always quick to drop a woman when she stopped playing nice. Yet I kept trying. Never took me long to get a new squeeze.

Today I can say free and clear I am not torn. I am fully happy alone. Why? I don't know but I have a new lust for freedom and a fire inside I have not felt in over a decade. There is no anxiety of the future, no desire to invest in a woman. I can't explain it as anything more than "I get it now". For those new guys in doubt, it comes if you decide to love yourself and focus on just you.

Cheers