Ups and downs

HaywoodJablome69 · 2018-11-11T20:33:30+00:00

Was married a really long time as a blue pill. Found RP at the end when I was getting a divorce around the age of 40.

Its not all about muscles. Its about frame. Confidence, a life outside of "women", interests, being interesting. I don't live by the "IDGAF" mantra, because I do in fact give a fuck about others. I'd say its more of a "take it or leave it" mindset that I live by.

I do stay in shape, I can't tell you the advantages a 45 year old guy has over the competition with just not being fat and dressing decent. Its mind blowing.

Bushpilot817 · 2018-11-11T22:39:29+00:00

I found RP in my early forties, swallowed the pill 15 months ago. I’d like to say my mind was blown when I discovered it, but the reality is that the nagging feeling of woman’s true nature was just behind a closed curtain in my BP days was always there; I just chose to ignore it. I could blame it on BP conditioning, of which there was plenty, but the signs were there.

I’ve had plenty of ups and downs along the way. Posted some truly faggot shit, victim pukes, etc., and made some great progress.

My biggest failures have been:

Letting go of the anger. Instead of focusing on improving myself, I spent too much time blaming others for the past and for time lost. Once I finally let go of that, I felt free. Outcome independent.
Losing frame. Frame has to be internalized and it just takes time and consistency. I did notice that my frame is weaker when I’m tired or stressed about something. I tend to slip up more this is the case. So I simply placed more priority on getting plenty of sleep, and quit staying up so late reading stupid shit on my phone.

Best ups? All of them. I would never accept my old self; and even better, I have the rest of my life to keep improving. Will I fuck up along the way? Sure - but I gotta just learn from it and move on.

Once you know the truth, only you can hold yourself back.

Themane22 · 2018-11-11T21:04:23+00:00

I'm currently going through a "down" in my TRP journey. When I first discovered it, I was happy because I could change. Now that I'm trying to change, I believe that I'm going through the "impostor syndrome". After a conversation where I acted alpha or assertive, I just think to myself, "is this really me?" I look at the mirror and see my self as a beta who acts as an alpha.

Also, a big part of why I feel down in my TRP journey is due to my internet addiction. I think the internet is great only when used as a supplement (e.g: homework help, job search, bodybuilding tips, self improvement) but I realized all this time I've been using it as a necessity. I tried quitting using internet as a necessity yesterday but I just felt so depressed and bored. If I had more friends or lived in an environment where I could go on spontaneous walks, I could have easily dealt with it.

I think that it really fucked my brain up because I remember when I was in high school, back when I wasn't really addicted to the internet, I always lived in the present and I was truly stoic. I'm trying to be like that but I live in a constant state of anxiety. It's definitely decreased due to the discovery of TRP, but impostor syndrome is making it worse again.

shugerdaddy · 2018-11-11T23:32:43+00:00

Hello Themane

Women are not men. They will get with anyone. I have seen some guys with some amazing women and these guys are fucking paperweights. Women may fantasise and talk about fit muscly men, but theyre fucking normal guys.

You could be an average guy but if your game, your frame and mindset are rock solid, a woman will find this arousing because to them it all starts in the mind. You then use the mind to fuck her into thinking youre the shit.

markinsinz7 · 2018-11-11T21:29:17+00:00

I'm going through the worst down of my life. In a job situation that I can't leave that doesn't allow me to improve other shit in my life due to no time. I suck at the job itself so I can't make any requests. I moved to a new city so no friends nothing. It takes time to find decent friends and build actual relationships with them. I friendzoned myself to a girl in hopes that it would pay off but that didn't work out either cause she is slutting it up - no hard feelings just sad.

Somehow I've ended up here, through a series of unusual circumstances decisions and what not. It will get better but that's maybe 4 months from now.

Themane22 · 2018-11-11T23:01:02+00:00

I guess what I’m asking guys is women’s nature really alpha fucks beta bucks? It’s a hell of a lot easier to get laid when you look good and lift and eat right. But what is “women’s nature” hypergamy?

SalporinRP · 2018-11-12T01:34:30+00:00

I suffer from depression but it usually comes in waves. I'll feel great for 8-9 months then feel like shit for 2 months. And the way I feel better is by eating. I had a depressive spell earlier this year that lasted about 2 months. Luckily I was in great shape beforehand and I didn't really stop lifting so I didn't get fat per-se, but I put on a solid 20-25 lbs. Gaining so much weight so quickly gave me some stretch marks on my hips too which didn't help things. I'm back to my normal weight now thankfully though and the stretch marks are mostly faded.

I've never been fat in my life, but I really need to break the habit of eating junk food when I'm feeling down because it just makes me feel worse in the long run.

I'm doing great now though. Making decent money in my first job, 3 plates plus a decent amount of hookups. Working on my daygame once a week. I'm happy now and I think I've given myself the tools to stay happy.

TheBadGoy · 2018-11-12T03:05:57+00:00

Reading theory and actually living it are two completely different things, so you're bound to have a mental breakdown at some point. You can't go back to being bluepilled, so you either become a Paul Elam or a GayLubeOil. A MGTOW or a fully red pilled man. After many ups and downs I say it's worth it, knowledge is an incredible power, especially when it comes to women.

Title	Ups and downs
Author	Themane22
Upvotes	2
Comments	17
Date	November 11, 2018 8:15 PM UTC (7 years ago)
Subreddit	Posted in /r/askTRP
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