I need your advice here please. I'm 15 years old. I've had a bad time with women in my life so far. I've just been shown that they're manipulative and controlling beings. Although I do like their bodies (which would be natural of someone my age) I strongly dislike women. I even dislike my mom and my grandma. They are manipulative towards me and as far as I'm concerned they don't like me very much. My grandma even wants to put me in the backyard in a barn. When I actually used to attend school there were multiple girls that I thought were cute. I accidentally told one of my "friends" and he told the girl I was interested in her. Of course she said no. (I'm pretty obese but most of its in my legs,) I moved to a new school and the girls found me to be gross. This one girl fake asked me out and then when I said I wasn't interested she said it was a joke anyways and they were playing a game where they had to approach the "ugliest" kid they could find and ask them out on a date. Being told I'm the ugliest person they could find was absolutely heartbreaking.There are so many more things that I could go on about but this is already a pretty long story. But those experiences molded me into what I am today. Anti-Social. I rarely leave the house. I don't go to school because of all the trauma I experienced when I was actually there. Me not going to school has had bad effects. I've been sent to juvenile detention twice. Of course that isn't enough to get me to go back. If I go back I am putting myself out in the open for more traumatic experiences. So the point is. Is it okay for me to dislike women considering my past? Or should I get over it and try and not have as much hatred as I do for them. Thanks

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