I've been MGTOW for nearly 4 years. Solidly. It all fit like a glove for me.

Then last week I met a pretty attractive woman who is a work colleague.

She's smart. She cooks. She's funny. She's really good at her career. That impressed me, somehow. She's got all the right curves in all the right places. She's got her quirks. Think of an Elaine from Seinfeld at her prime. And bigger tits.

My libido came back. I had to jack it every night just to be able to sleep. Otherwise it's once a week. WTF, right?

"What's this woman doing to me?" I thought. Maybe I should chase her. I'm sure she thinks I'm cute. Maybe we could start something. Maybe we'd make a great team. Shit, I looked forward to meeting her every day.

But I snapped out of it.

I've seen this shit before. She only seems smart because she's good at her career. I doubt she cares much about anything outside of it. Just because she's educated does not make her deep. Her degree simply elevates her SMV as she herself wants something on her level, if not higher. If we lived together, she'd likely start working less until not at all...plus, all the money I'd make would be HER money. I remembered how many men I know who are nearly financially ruined because their honeys are buying unecessary shit and taking out debt. 

I only find her funny because she laughs at my jokes.

I only think that cooking is a good quality because of the low standard of woman today.

She's probably rode the cock carousel. 

She can't attract high quality men and get them to stick around.

If she's good at her career, I can probably be better...because I'm a guy.

She's attractive now, yes, but she'll hit the wall soon and I would theoretically have her at the beginning of her end.

I'm back on the horse...but for fuck's sake, for a week or so I was back in the blue pill. I was depressed yesterday but I can feel the logic coming back. Even my libido is vanishing again. WTF, guys? I feel like I've been drugged for a week and am now in the comedown.

This shit is dangerous.