A little background on myself:

About 2 years ago, I was a regular poster on TheBluePill subreddit. I made fun of you guys, called you all bitter, hate-filled misogynists. As you can imagine, though, I had zero success with women. Every single girl I attempted to date became just a friend. Now, I don't necessarily resent them for that. They can't control who they like, just like I can't control who I like. However, I began to analyze why this was the case and came up with a whole myriad of reasons. I made the decision to improve myself and began reading up on how to actually attract women. At first, I avoided absolutely anything resembling the manosphere like the plague.

However, I had an interesting conversation today with one of these friends who I used to date. She was the only person who I ever called "girlfriend," it was a very brief long-distance relationship. I was telling her about this new girl I met and how I'm essentially trying to play hard to get. She affirmed my strategy, telling me about the guys she's talking to on OkCupid and how the one she's most interested in never messages her first, acts indifferent to her and is kind of an asshole.

At that moment, I had an epiphany. See, when she started "dating" me, there was another guy she was interested in. This guy [we'll call him James], just like the guy she's talking to now, was an asshole. When James spurned her advances, she came to me. We dated until James suddenly became interested again...funny, huh? And then...[spoiler alert!]...when James stopped being interested, guess what happened? Oh, yeah! She came back to me! All of you are probably rolling your eyes right now, but it didn't take me until fucking today to realize it.

In fact, every guy she's dated has been an asshole. How do I know? Well, I've basically taken on the role of the gay best friend who she comes to whenever she has relationship problems. Again, I have no problem being her friend despite that previous sentence, I just find it interesting.

And no, I'm not a nice guy(TM), I'm genuinely nice to everyone. Not just people I'm interested in romantically, EVERYONE. It absolutely kills me to play these stupid dating games that make me go against my nature. It kills me to know that they actually work, and that unless I use them I'll just be someone's second or even third choice.

Anyway, I am not sure if I'm ready to "join" you yet. I'm just posting this to get that heap off my chest.