TRP community!!!

Sorry if this post is a little all over the place, I am a little high...

I am a freshman in college who has no problem getting pussy. I have more bodies than i can count, and most to all of the girls are solid 8s, 9s, and some 10s.

Ultimately I'm just in this fucking funk because of my ex. We were off an on for a few months while we were dating. We have been talking for about a year, and she has been by far the one who i have been most interested since day one. I have cheated on her more times than I can count with above attractive girls. Girls that should make me forget about my ex but for some reason i just cant let her go. I don't think she has cheated on me just because I feel like i would figure out and i have done a lot of digging eveytime we hangout- yes i was a creap and fucking went through her whole phone and found some things i liked and didn't like.

I am having a problem letting her go. Its fucked up because i cant think of her doing something with any other guy but i don't have a problem doing anything with any girl. I like fucking other girls but alot of the one night stands are not as good as it would be if i was fucking my ex. i somtimes just wish it was her i was fucking. We have grown super comfortable with each-other and fucked every way possible. It hasn't always been like this from the beginning but the sex was never really the problem.

The big concern for me is trying to let her go. Ive tried so many times to block her etc but for some reason we always come back to having phone sex and just talking to eachother in general. I need your help boys because i need to let this girl go. She has made many mistakes but i have too. The only difference is im just better at hiding them than she is. And she has a problem with communication and i always find out her bad news through a way that would make any male want to punch her in the face.

She has played games with me and said like "this guy was hitting on me" and blah blah blah were were in a long distance relationship she went to a college 12 hours away from me. I never really showed any attention to that because i had bitches on my dick. But it always really hurt because she has hurt me time and time and time again and i care about her.

What do i do??? i have another girl who i have been hanging out with and she's super into me. Shes super cute and i want to try to hangout with her i just feel a lack of motivation because of my ex. Im scared to go any further with this new girl now because this rebound will look really bad in her eyes. This new girl is a barbie type of girl, who is pretty much exactly like one of the other girls i had a relationship with before my ex who she fucking hated. She knows about this girl i am texting now and asks so many questions because she feels threatened by her. i often lie to my ex and tell her its not a big deal eventhough it is so she will just leave me the fuck alone.

I am scared to let her go like i said and see her with other guys. All the other guys she talks to are fucking losers who either don't go to college and just dick around or super smart farts who look like fucking faggots. What way should i approach this? I feel like i'm back in highschool where i'm talking to 2 girls at one time and its just way to much fucking work.

I know i love my ex and i know she loves me but ive been trying to think about how we are not forever but just it was my time with her. I dont know how to let go and not stress out about who shes talking to and what shes doing. I know when i let her go shes going to be a whore and that scares me. She knows ill be the best she will ever have in bed and body type wise (i'm relatively strong) and has had time and time again to realize that. But i feel like i can do better. I dont know what to do so please help me out. I'll answer any questions you guys have but i just need to let go and not care in the best way possible. I want her to still be obsessed with me and wish every guy she fucks after me was me.

Please fucking help me boys. I need to get her out of my head but the thought of me not being able to control her every move scares me. I know she is a whore, like a player. She likes drama and she likes fucking around and beating around the bush. I just need to find the best way to leave and not look back. Im a jealous guy and that fucks me in the ass.