I am a 30 year old male who has a a genetic disease I was diagnosed at 16 but my life was normal up until I was 23,

I've had many love interests in my life the longest relationship I had being 4 years. As my disease progressed I became less desirable and I do not blame anyone for not being interested as I'd be hesitant myself so I just decided that I wanted to go solo and focus on myself. 

In 2017 I met a girl who shares my disease who lives in my town I taught my lonely days were over...when I learned that even a girl simular to me me had guys constantly trying to hit her up and lavish her with opportunities I was quickly disgarded to see via social media she was over in Amsterdam with her new boyfriend a week later. 

This obviously hurt me I was feeling even more lonely and like a failure of a man this led me to discover the red pill... 

I felt like my eyes were finally open it helped me attract further women I slept with 2

The last girl really played with me and broke my heart lying and even persuading me to have a painful circumcision and I later found out she was seeing her ex boyfriend while I was in hospital I decided that I'm done perusing women as my disease has a life expectancy of 35 I just don't want to go through something like that ever again...

Then I discovered MGTOW I wouldn't call myself mgtow but I do agree with alot of they say. 

I was chatting with someone at a party and he brought up mgtow and how shitty they are i told him they aren't completely wrong... he told me he is a male feminist and said I'm an incel

For the record I don't hate women my life is just complicated and I find it easier to keep away from them romantically