so i hooked up with a girl for several months last year, made a bad mistake and got wayyyy too attached and stupidly developed feelings. I really cared for this girl actually (very stupid mistake). I thought she was amazing in bed, had a great body, a great personality and so on and so forth. She broke things off with me this time last year.

I think my mind is playing tricks on me. When i think of this girl who i kinda have oneitis over i keep thinking she is the hottest girl, her sex was amazing, her personality was great and so on. when i look at reality it doesn't make sense.

The guy she left me for dumped her after 3 months.

She has only had 3 boyfriends her entire life (including me).

The guy she is dating, has way less SMV than me. (balding, ugly shit job etc).

Why is my mind playing such bad tricks on me? sometimes i get so depressed and miss this girl and miss the sex and i think man "she was the best!" ...yet if she was THAT AMAZING then why doesn't she have a relationship with a high value male? why isn't she even dating a high value male?

isn't it simple because i had "feelings" for this girl? is it because she is the hottest girl i've ever been with? i just can't work it out. Anyone else experienced this?