Gents, I’ve been struggling with being a beta my earlier years which I can attribute to my past depression, anxiety, and shitty family life. I was used to putting chicks on a pedestal and always complaining about I’m making the effort to do X, Y, Z for them and willing to go the distance but they never reciprocate it or never replied, so I learned to just accept their rejections and sulk to them after which I was always met with LJBF. I hate it and until last year got more and more fed up with it. I had somewhat of an LTR just under a year and after discovering TRP I realized now how much a beta cuck I was... always demanding constant communication, planning ahead and rarely being spontaneous, asking to fuck instead of letting her come onto me etc. I’m glad to say it came to a point where I was constantly comparing and finally said fuck it, I’m done, I’m not me and I’ve lost too much sleep, money, time and energy for that bitch.

However, as I try to apply TRP into my current single life I find I’m still struggling with women and their stupid games. I’ve become more mysterious and don’t bash my truth to them, I am always willing to hangout/drive and have fun, but they never seem interested or willing enough to hangout as much as I want. I don’t get it guys.

I’m 18, 6’4, 180lbs lean and mean athletic machine, muscles, veins, abs you name it. Not completely jacked but definitely muscular for a skinny guy. Clean haircut, jawline, nice smile you name it. I’m committed to a university volleyball team, working out everyday with my teams training, always played sports in school, named MVP and athlete of the year multiple times. I took a gap year to work full time in a hard labour field, and making way more than minimum wage soon. Active asf and an adrenaline junkie, bridge jumping, parkour, cliff diving, sailing, hiking, racing and driving are the same for me at this point. I play guitar very well, love making music and doing epic shit with music blasting away. I Know plenty of people older than me (I grew up and matured quickly from all the shit I had to go through early on) who I hang with, club with, drink with, party and vibe the hell out with and relate to more than all the social media, nicotine addicts my age. If any of this doesn’t speak high SMV for an 18yo then I don’t know what does. Meanwhile all the other potheads who “trap” and do fuck all somehow get all these bitches to slurp their cum.

Is there anything I’m doing wrong? I’m all for that IDGAF attitude that I’ve developed more and more through all the shit I go through. I find myself texting and snapping chicks too quickly and browsing through tinder at work a bit often. And whenever asked to hangout these bitches always say “Oh quarantine, virus this, insert lame ass excuse here my parents strict blah blah blah” when not 2 hours later I see them hanging with their friends for iced coffee or out in some parking lot. I just don’t get it guys.

Any suggestions to help me develop into more of an alpha? Comments about my path? I’m very open minded so go ahead and hit me with what you fine men got.