I've been clowning around (unprotected) with a never been tested alcoholic with low emotional intelligence. I see some good in him but why am I giving and giving and putting my health at risk for someone who makes me feel like shit? I question whether I'm too sensitive but I don't think his behaviour is normal. Hoping to end this tomorrow, get tested in a few weeks and work on myself properly without caving and downloading tinder for attention/mediocre sex because it's "easier" than putting in the work to accept and respect myself PROPERLY.