I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years. We've been in a LDR for that whole time. He hasn't even really discussed the future with me. He lives with his Dad and they are working on a business together. He wants this business to do well so he can make money to support us and he can have the flexibility of a job that isn't a 9-5, allowing him more time with me. This business is still in its early stages so it's not getting much money in yet. I still live at home myself and I was waiting for him to pay off debt he had and to get some savings before we moved in together. At this point I am tired of waiting for our life to start.

He is a great guy. Loving, loyal, compassionate and kind. He is anti-porn and incredibly sweet and generous. He gets me the best and most thoughtful birthday presents. He makes me little gifts by hand. I don't want to leave him, I love him and I know there are very few men like him. The stories I read about porn-sick men who want to choke their girlfriends and do anal, it makes me shudder. I could not tolerate a man who watches porn. And really I do love him and want to be with him, but things are just getting too much now.

I live at home with parents who have emotionally and physically abused me as a child. I have not found the confidence or the money to move out yet. I live in an expensive part of the country so even just a house share would take up half my wages. But I've got to the point where I am sick of everything and just need to move out. Though I also have severe social anxiety so the thought of living in a house share is terrifying. I don't know what else to do.

My boyfriend now says he is fed up of living with his Dad who doesn't respect his boundaries. His Dad just walks into his bedroom. When I go to stay there I feel so uncomfortable as his Dad is sexist and a very loud and obnoxious man who makes me very anxious. At one point my boyfriend said I should live with him and his Dad while I look for work in the area, then we could get our own place. I considered it for a while as I am so unhappy at home and want to progress our relationship but now I know I wouldn't be able to cope in that environment.

My boyfriend has realised he's sick of living with his Dad and thinks he has been stupid for trying to make this business work. So he's started to look at other jobs and intends to get his own place which I could maybe move into if I one day decide that's what I want. But at the moment I'm questioning what I do want. I used to dream of a future with him but now I'm fed up. I am fed up of his in-laws too. I mean most of his family are lovely but his Dad and several other members fill me with dread, the thought of spending a life time knowing them.. His Dad already finds me rude I expect because I don't interact with him when I spend the weekend in his home. But he's a very abrasive man and not easy to talk to.

My boyfriend's Mum and Dad separated years ago and his Mum and her side of the family live on the other side of the country. Housing is much cheaper up there so for a time we were considering living up there. But now I just don't know. I do love his family and they have been the family that I never had. Or so I thought, as now my boyfriend's sister has had a baby, that's all they care about. I wanted to get to know them better but I think the Pickmeisha side of me has longed for their approval when really they probably aren't that fussed about me, though they are lovely when I see them.

Anyway, I'm just questioning everything, like I say. I did want to go up that part of the country to live but now I'm worried I will miss my friends down here. I only have 3 friends but I'd miss them so much. They would be a 3-4 hour drive away and I can't drive. I'm not really sure what this post is about, I just don't know what the future holds anymore. Now that my boyfriend finally wants to get his act together, I feel like I'm losing interest.