A few days shy of three months I have been talking to a guy. We are long distance, separate countries. We have not met yet. We text, phone chat and video call.

In so many words our connection and compatibility is on a whole other level. I speak from a logical standpoint. I have never met or dated a guy who was this for me. There are so many intuitive and spiritual currents that are beyond our doing. I see this for us together, for myself personally and him also separately.

I have always been more than my partner or interest, particularly where it pertains to intellect, spirituality and even at times financially and physically. Though finances have never been my strong suit as I have not yet had the opportunity to be employed in a manner that does not degrade my authenticity. The corporate world is soul sucking and tiresome.

Last night we finally touched on spiritual things. He is a Christian, but unothordox and not bound to the religion due to various inconsistencies, concerns and evidence of how Christianity plays a role in the real world. I am the same. We both have had a very haphazard journey therein and while he left off religion to be successful in business I pursued wisdom. So yesterday was a profoundly huge milestone as I introduced him to my spirituality. Needless to say he is unquantifyably taken with me.

But I don't neccessarily feel like I want him anymore. At first I felt profound peace, then I felt resignation. Almost like I feel again like I am more than him in the sense that we may be exceptionally compatible but still at different levels, even though that could be summed up as different life paths. Business vs spirituality. I've never been able to connect with someone on every level as I do him. I don't know if the way I feel is because I've been open to romantizing what should be a good friendship because I just haven't had this experience in my entire life. I've been experiencing a spiritual revival as well so he could be being overshadowed by my love for the Divine, even though I don't find issue with him being a part of that with me.

He wants to marry me. He has expressed his love for me. He will give me a pink diamond ring, a house in a beautiful place, use his business expertise to help me start my own businesses, his connections and influence, take me around the world, anything and everything that I desire because he wants to make me happy and to see me smile. His life purpose and duty is to be of service to me. I am his queen, his princess, his angel, etc etc etc.

We met on Tinder and the moment he saw my picture he knew that something was different, throughout all our exchanges and conversations he knew that I am the one. He is celibate for my sake because he cannot separate his desire from my happiness and pleasure. He cannot live without me, his soul is attached, I have no idea what I mean to him.

All of these things he had said over the course of my knowing him. It does not feel predatory or fake. I do not sense that I am being love bombed. The pace has been very respectful though we are honest and open in our understanding of each other. Still, I don't tell all.

We are both respectful and friendly, even flirty and deeply respectful with one another but are equally certain that we want to make the right decision for a committed relationship, without red flags, the proper foundation, etc. We've even talked about what and how that looks, educating ourselves and going to conferences, retreats where couples learn how to have strong partnerships, etc.

I'm just feeling like I just don't need him, romantically. It sounds ludicrous because I believe I have found a HVM and one who could give me everything I wanted and more.

Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's just too soon and that's okay. Maybe I'm just bored or the achievement just isn't hitting how I thought it would. Maybe I am feeling insecure about our connection withstanding the test of spirituality, what if our paths diverge?

We will be meeting for the first time next month, he is coming to my country. It will be the beginning of his opportunity to show his intentions towards me by his continual actions.

Ladies, lend me your thoughts.

TLDR; I am talking to a HVM for three months who will soon be courting me in person and is in every way complementary and compatible to me on all levels. He has confessed his love and says that I am the one. I don't know how to feel, it's kinda flat.