I have been using stuff that I learned from red pill channels like alpha male strategies since I started dating my girlfriend 4 months ago. I never compliment her, check her on her behavior, try to pass shit tests as much as possible, try to hold frame, do pull backs for a few days at a time, and generally treat like she's beneath me. She responds amazingly well to these things. She also responds poorly to me giving her non sexual attention and starts to shit test me and lower attraction when I give her too much. Which sucks because I would really like to do more relationship type things with her, because I like her (wouldn't be dating her if I didn't).

I want to stop treating my girlfriend like a video game where I hit the right buttons and love and affection come out, and I mess up and it goes away. It's getting ridiculous. I don't know how often to text my girlfriend because I am always playing a game of chicken to make sure I am not texting her more than she texts me. Basically ever since learning about how female brains work I can't treat her like a normal human being anymore. I have to constantly torture her (and myself) with this alpha male strategy shit because that is the only way she can love me.

How can I make my behavior more natural? It is so against my instinct to do certain things that it causes me physical pain and sickness to pull back from my girlfriend for 3 days. I am literally on my purpose more than anyone, full time job, professional music gigs at night, friends, and I still can't stop thinking about her. I want to be an alpha male in all areas of my life but I cannot seem to control the strong feeling I have.