I got into a relationship with a classmate in sophomore year. We were both virgins at the time (this is india).

At first I wanted to keep things casual and didn't like the girl all that much, didn't even find her attractive. I only was in the "relationship" in hopes of loosing my v card. But that bitch told me that she was very serious about me, that she wanted to marry me and all the bs girls say while they're in love.

Due to lack of experience, I started believing whatever she was saying and started caring about the relationship. Couple months in we lose virginity to each other. This leads to months of rampant rabbit sex, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. We'd fuck every day and there were days we'd fuck more than 4 times.

I was in bliss. And unknowingly I had started to show her all my blue pill tendencies. Over shared my feelings, became jealous and needy. I had actually started to believe that we'd be married one day.

Things changed and suddenly we're having less sex and more arguments, finally She suggests breaking up. But breaking up will mean I'll loose access to that pussy, so I ask her to try one more time, she agrees. Buy this couldn't go on for long, she started hating me. This became toxic to the point where we would physically abuse each other while having sex. After a few months I realized that I couldn't do anything to keep her, we finally broke up, I block her on all social media.

Its been 1 and a half year since I've last had sex. Every time I feel horny I just want to go back to her and beg her for sex. But the reality is I don't want her back. I've not been able to fuck any other girl after her which makes me mad. Lockdown last year has not been helpful either in me meeting other girls.

Working as a paid intern at a reputed tech company. I'll graduate in August, already have a few good job offers and I'm working on my body as well. I've consumed a lot of RP content from Rollo, Richard cooper and the likes.

I'm not looking for a relationship or even plates, I just want to break this dry spell and get laid. Right now I'm stuck in a small town in central India. Can't cold approach, can't pay someone for sex, I feel so stuck and horny. Apps like tinder or bumble don't work either. Please help.