Hey all, I'm in a little bit of a situation right now. I normally am not one to come asking for advice in this area but this is a friendship that carries importance to me due to me realistically spending more time with this girl than most other people in my life right now and have had most of my big life experiences in the last 2 years with her around.

For background in myself and the situation, I've read the Red Pill religiously for about 5 months and have read it off and on over the last year as well as other sites like therationalmale so I do have a good idea about the manosphere and its teachings. I'm 19 and this girl is 18, we've been friends since our senior year of highschool. She is an HB9 without question and this has recently drawn a good amount of attention to her in the last couple months.

I've always been the dominant one in our friendship and she has always been a girl who is stricken with a lot of social interaction problems, she tends to not have any friends and I've always been the only person she has to hang out. Ever since I started reading the Red Pill after my last ex I've been pursuing to get more active in my game and to hook up with more girls as well as improve myself. This has led to going out more and she is often in the same group of people I go out with. Our first time going out to the bars for the start of the year we actually ended up hooking up at the end of the night. There'd been a sexual tension I'd like to say building up but I used to hold the mindset that she wasn't worth my time but since I've been breaking out of beta habits I realized that's somewhat silly. After this we didn't make much of it (or so I thought) and over the course of the next 3 weeks I hooked up with a different girl every weekend and on one occasion this girl and I had to share a bed so we cuddled.

After this 3 week span of me hooking up on weekends she disclosed to me that she'd hooked up with some dude 7 times in the last month (sober sex, dude slid into her messages on twitter each time) but I didn't think much of it. She also was hooking up with another guy in the same friend group as the first whenever they crossed paths when out. The next time we went out on the way back she started getting very emotional with me and kind of sad/upset that I always "swerved" her, she sees me hooking up and hitting on girls and was upset I didn't give her the attention. I'll spare the blurry conversation we had but from that point on we would hangout a decent amount over the next few weeks while hooking up, kissing and cuddling. I thought things might be getting more serious and I know this is a fuckup for reaching for a LTR but on her way out one night I said "So we're getting more serious huh?" and she awkwardly said back with a shy grin "I'm a hoe" and left. I continued cuddling with her when she would come over stupidly but I did.

This past weekend we were getting ready to go out and she texted me saying she was on her way to my friends house. I thought nothing of it until she shows up and told the people outside how she wasn't even coming here but her plans fell through then she tells me how when she texted me "on my way" she actually wasnt. This upsets me and I kind of put her off until we drove to campus with my friends. We get to campus and when we park she bails on the group to go to the bars with some girl claiming "im expanding new horizons" (meeting new people) she texts me late that night how she basically got gangbanged and I find out she had a train run on her by all those guys I mentioned before and others. I handled it well but don't really know how I should deal with this friendship/getting more intimate relationship.

I would like to just continue with how it's been (cuddling, hooking up, etc) but I know that this probably isn't the best plan of action. I think it's safe to say my idea of anything more serious ever is canned but I don't know how to deal with this. I'll admittedly say I felt feelings of oneitess after the night she opened up to me but didn't express them and have since dealt with it. We had plans to hangout today but I'm asking the community for advice now. Anything would be much appreciated guys, sorry for the long post just let me know your thoughts.