Lightswitch effect is too strong. I was over her, she went after me, now I'm the one chasing. It's so stupid that a single girl holds the key to my dopamine system.

Then I'll feel like shit and just booty call any girl who's slid into my DMs. Some of them are below my league, but I do them anyway just so I clear my head.

This is weak behavior. Fuck this covid lockdown, I'm unable to focus on my goals because I can't simply go out and meet new people -> lack of abundance. I know it, girls should just be an extra to an already good life, but right now it feels like they are the bottleneck.