I don't want this to violate text wall limit, so will do my best to keep it short, but would really appreciate the advice. Apologize for the sporadic nature, but it's the result. Caveat: I know this wall is higher than the one trump will build, I know this will be a frame feat of epic proportions, but I am ready.

My situation is common in many ways, but perhaps atypical in the extent of my fuck ups in the relationship. I failed the basic shit tests from day one. We all know that feeling of "true love" and in my comfort my insecurities became my most prominent features. I was drinking too much, had a job was unhappy with, father who is a drunk. I had the oneitis. I've got looks, charm, and have no problem with women when it comes to meeting and fucking, but it's the relationships that get me. I lost a lot in my younger years (im 27) because of my personal insecurities that ultimately made me a beta LTR man. I gave up the whole direction of my life for a bad, stupid relationship with a bimbo when I was 19-23. All it got me was a move to a bad city, unhappiness, lying and herpes. The redpill has blown my mind.

We fought like hell, had great sex, I maintained many alpha qualities. She hated that I trashed her beta friends, my vocal support for Trump, etc. But I never kept my cool, and she was as emotionally unstable as they all are. I lost frame, lost it bad. She lost total respect for me and has justified everything by blaming it on my drinking.

It's been two months, and I have never seen change in my life as I have now. I have quit drinking except on the weekends, and only now drink a few at most (I have come to hate the way alcohol makes me feel physically and mentally). Found the redpill, been studying the power of thought. Joined the gym, started a training program (doing SL 5x5), got my mcycle license (have a couple of bikes), taking woodworking (furniture making) classes. I have started loving myself. I have started exercising restraint, self control, discipline, maturity, confidence. The results have been immediate in all areas of my life.

I've fucked up by maintaining contact with her. She'd sent texts the past months, a snapchat here, a comment here, and I'd make a joke back, try to play it cool, show that I was happy, stable. A few weeks ago, we finally talked via and she went straight into ridiculing me for being a beta (that's not how she put it, but you get the drift). For being a loser, etc. etc. Then she'd tell me she loves me.

I kept my distance since then, stayed on RP, in the gym, and in books. Last weekend after my mcycle class on saturday I met up with a buddy to get some food and a beer. He's got wmn problems so it ended up that we were at a beer tasting with his "GF" and a group of her friends but I thought "this is healthy for me, I need to do something social, around women etc." Of course, I run into ex at beer festival. BAM. The feels. I had a little buzz, but just played it cool. Our group walked away. Immediately I get texts of jealousy, wtf am I doing at a beer festival etc. I lost frame a bit by responding at all, but kept my night going. I went home early as I had a mcycle class and honestly got tired of being around people and stupid women. I didn't feel like drinking or socializing. I get a text that night "Im guessing your home". I respond "I am home" but fall into beta by inserting something about love and this all making sense. I'm in bed but late that night she sent texts "i love you so much, i miss you so much, i wish you were here in bed with me."

I fucked up the next day and asked if we could get together. She said she really wanted to but sunday wasnt a good day and I simply said "sounds good!" and left it at that. i broke into beta when hours later she sends me some text tirade about me being at a beer festival after im not "supposed to be drinking" and with other women. at first i tried to defend myself. then i finally went alpha and told her that she was a distraction, I needed her to leave me alone and that I'm not going to stop enjoying myself or having a fulfilling life. She says "I dont know how to respond to that via text" but I say nothing. She calls the following night "is this a bad time" and i say "give me a minute, i just got back from the gym. she goes into a tirade "how can you afford the gym" i respond "i quit drinking". then from there she just attacks and attacks, tells me im a loser, ill never stay in the gym and then starts bursting into uncontrollable crying rambling about the election, about some class, meanwhile i cant get a word in edgewise and my respect is finally starting to just drop completely for this woman. no more longing on my part, no more anything. she continued to light into me, and after i finally started to respond (failure, i should have hung up after saying when she gets a grip we can talk) she starts launching into some hyperventilation and starts talking about how shes going to hurt herself if she doesnt get off the phone. i started to just feel bad for her, like a retarded animal or something. i said bye and have ignored her all week. she sent some snapchat the other day from the voting station, and i left it alone. trump BTFOd out her whole crew, so i was admittedly getting off on the thought.

ALL THAT SAID, QUESTION: I've been ghost all week. I get a text tonight "do you want to get together this weekend and talk. i understand if you dont want to talk."

Guys, I live for myself now. Regardless of what happens, I have finally made my mental peace. I am attractive, smart, healthy, strong, etc. etc. However, I'd like to use this to try out the "try out redpill on your ex". i know this situation is different, but i'd like to use it as the ultimate frame flip, and then fuck her into submission. just as a conquering, as a "enter the redpill" moment. how do i approach this? i have not responded, but would like to "get together" on my terms, play it cool, bust out some crazy frame magic (ride the trump energy) and ultimately result in some alpha sex next week. what do you think? edit: i'm prepared for the "just leave it alone and move on" but it's not even the sex that's most important, it's the entire frame flip, the sex being part of that...

edit 2: i forgot to add that i was also beta in that she as a nanny for rich folk makes a lot more money than i do right now, had her own place, and i was staying there regularly. she's got a lot over me in that regard, and is using that to her full advantage.