I get a lot of first dates but not a lot of second ones, I struggle to close, even kiss. Just yesterday I was on yet another date and I noticed something about myself. First time I ever made up an excuse to get inside a girl's place after the first date, even though I always imagined doing it. She was waiting for me to make a move, but I instead kept on talking about stuff. I kept digging, trying to establish some deeper connection or whatever, as if I needed to be actually "intimate" before getting physically intimate, even though it is obvious to me we were both just looking for sex. Time went on and her body language became more closed-off, and I, as per usual, ended up leaving. I think I'm trying to get more from women than they can possibly give me, some bond that doesn't exist, and end up cockblocking myself. The existence of "just sex" or "casual sex" seems to be a concept that I understand but haven't internalized.

On another note, how long did it take you guys since discovering TRP and reading the sidebar to see steady efficacy? I've discovered it in 2019 and since then I doubled my n-count, but a lot of times it's 1 step forward 2 steps back, I now see mistakes and missed opportunities everywhere and to me fighting the BP nature comes really hard. On dates I put on the "Chad-alpha" masquerade, when in reality I'm a melancholic and sentimental kind of person, but I do want to get laid and the sentimental guy in me doesn't do that, while the "Chad" does.