I am disgusted by my plate after she fulfilled my porn fantasies (facial/spanking/choking/very rough dominating sex).

In my (strong Beta) previous LTRs I never had that problem. The sex I had was not really kinky as I am having it now, but also not very vanilla either.

I have the feeling that I have two cognitions conflicting with each other. TRP theory and my Beta concepts.

Does anyone have an idea how I can dissolve that conflict?