I'm not proud of this. One of my old military friends used to say, "Lower your standards. Up your average. Fuck gremlins." This was the first girl I've hooked up with since I broke up with my last LTR at the beginning of December. I'm not ugly, fairly fit, tall. Don't have a great job, and live with family. I don't put a lot of effort into hooking up.

The girl looks like your average SJW. A good 25lbs overweight, but she had a big ass... I basically showed up at the bar, bummed a smoke from her and had a don't give a fuck attitude towards her. She was dtf so I let it happen. Never would have even talked to her sober. Now I feel like I need many long, hot showers. I keep telling myself this was a beneficial encounter. Is there anything I can take from this?