Ok so here is my story:

Im black. I'm 22. I'm a virgin sexually and romantically.

I fucked up in high school and had to go to community college but I'm close to transferring to an official institution swarmed with women who have been conditioned by the feminist agenda.

I'm getting to the point now where I'm feeling lonely cause I've never had sex or had an official relationship with a woman.

I'm constantly told I gotta "be me" or "be more confident", which to me is easier said than done.

I find my self constantly crushing on females that I have extended contact with.

I find it easier to be upfront with what I want from women over the internet but in person I always seem to be put in the friend zone or I friend zone myself according to my male friends.

I genuinely think men and women can be platonic friends and I have a few that I care for and am not seeking anything with but there are some that I would love to be completely inappropriate with and I wouldn't hesitate for all that friendship bullshit.

I go to a community college so the women I interact with are either too young or too old or just right but are so focused on getting outta there that I don't get time to do anything with them.

Everyday I'm tortured with the feminist regime but I'm starting to see the dark side of females. They can be stuck-up and materialistic and when it comes to what kind of man many of them say they want: they may as well be shopping for a new dress cause they don't seem to know what they want then either.

I'm something of an idealist. Maybe I've watched too much tv and movies but I want that romantic shit we always are bombarded with. The connection, the bonding and blah blah blah but I'm also seeing that perhaps women have been using this bullshit just to further advance in life and society and don't really believe in it much either.

My parents are great but my mom is a god-fearing, church-going woman who I doubt really would get what I'm feeling and my dad is a 50-something year old man that seems to have dreams and goals that he never met. My mom is coming into the menopausal phase in life and idk but I think dad is in a mid-life crisis (if that's real).

I know society is fucked up and women seem to have more privilege now more than ever before (esp. white women).

I don't exercise much and I have a really bad diet.

What's wrong with me?