Hi, I don't have anywhere else to go. My life has been over for some time now and I am sitting in a prison of my own existence. Nothing is going to be the same. Even those that support me are affected by it to a degree. She has mobilized the small community I was a part of against me - even recently going as far as trashing my business because she is insecure about the lawsuit. Also, convincing another person to make a false claim. I had to go to jail twice and now it looks like I am a serial rapist when that is not the case.

She was abused, hadn't reconciled her pain, and is taking it out on me like a voodoo doll. My enemy that took my ex is also part of the charges.

I am thinking of writing a book - if I survive (end suicide joke).

I just wanted to share that I am sad, angry, depressed, coping poorly, isolated, beaten, and I feel alone. I'm glad there is a community out here like this. I am still in the middle of court stuff and haven't even pled yet so I can't talk about it.

If I am able to survive, legally, I am not sure how to move on.