I held my boyfriend at gunpoint over a 8 hour period. I wanted to pull the trigger.

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I was not in a good mental spot. It wasn't some big epic fight that started it. We had a disagreement and I flipped. I didn't black out, I was fully aware of my actions.

We were in a happy relationship, at that point 3 years in. I woke up one day and we had a little arguement over something I don't even remember now. He tried walking away to let me cool off and I lost it. I grabbed my gun, told him we were going to talk. I loaded it and held him at gunpoint in our bedroom for about 8 hours. I had never been violent before, no warning signs etc. He talked me out of it and instead of calling the police he got me the help I needed through medical professionals.

I was diagnosed with PTSD, social anxiety and depression (possible stemming from the PTSD).

He was there for me every step of the way, and the guilt I feel will never go away from my actions. Life could of gone such a different way if I pulled the trigger. This was 10 years ago, and we are married and have 2 beautiful children. Looking at us now, no one would imagine what happened. We never told anyone, and he stood by me at my darkest moment.

Mental health problems are real. Instead of locking me away, and running for the hills he helped me when I needed it the most. The resulting life we are living together is more then I could have ever imagined.