Long story short, I’ve had the most Disney/Fairytale story with my crush. Met in the first day of college, etc etc. This is a mutual perspective. I want to get to the point.

What happened was I “bluepilled” (as this forum calls it) and that killed the sexual attraction in the moment I suppose. But she knows that’s not who I am and has stuck with me and maintained interest (long term, she disappears if she sees me at a bar and I bluepill, which I now understand fully why) despite me not making a real move (I’ve asked her to dinner). I only found this subreddit and learned this new perspective (I don’t agree with any of the demeaning nature of this forum, but women want a masculine man) after not getting another chance to make a move because of finals and the year coming to a close.

Now summer is on us we’re both going home, and we hadn’t talked in weeks. She tells me she loves me and doesn’t want me to forget about her over break. Girls don’t communicate this overtly ever, but she did. She really is unlike anyone else in this regard. What must she be feeling to communicate like this? How can I fix/respond to the situation now, having been a “blue pill” when trying to make moves before?

About me: I live a redpill life (would go to the gym or run at 5:30 before every day in high school, maintaining that for 3 years, mission driven) with a very loud, Italian personality. But I’ve been bluepill with women my whole life.