I need some words of positive and read some hopeful stories as my life is so dark right now.

Last week, coming from court, where I was held in contempt due to lies. I was driving absent mindedly and I tried to change lanes on the highway. and, a truck was in my blind spot hit me and got into a serious crash and no one knows how I survived.
life has been hard, I try to keep some normalcy by going to the gym. However, the weight of my circumstances makes it nearly impossible to find joy or positivity. I struggle with simple tasks, and even work feels impossible. I am not gonna lie, I think about checking out every night, but I know it's weak and I cannot give up like that.
At 37, I'm grappling although my divorce was finalized two years ago, yet still entangled in ongoing court battles with my ex. Each time, the court seems to favor her, despite the truth being on my side. In my last court appearance, the hearing officer appeared indifferent, siding with my ex's claims and holding me in contempt unjustly. I was denied the opportunity to present my side of the story, how the fuck is this a Justice System?

I was positive at first, but this shit been going for two years, Financially drained by legal fees exceeding $300,000 just fighting false allegations, I feel defeated and helpless.
The weight of these losses is crushing. It's challenging to envision a path to recovery with the financial ruin. I struggle to find motivation to return to work or to rebuild the life I've spent two decades constructing. adding that I lost my good income due to a tech layoff, add to that the exorbitant legal expenses, has left me emotionally and financially depleted.
to say use the pain as fuel for a fresh start, the reality is far more daunting. Each morning feels like a battle just to rise from bed. the darkness that surrounds me, I'm desperately seeking a glimmer of hope to guide me through this tumultuous chapter of my life.