Probably like many other here just recently got a divorce, 30 years old. Came back from work one day and discovered she left. Told her repeatedly to come back but just got verbal abuse back and she just spread nasty rumors about me. This was after 4 years I fought her immigration case to come to my country and after 1 and half month she just left. I guess I'm writing this is that im struggling with my thoughts and dreams. Thinking i could do something differently. This is even affecting my faith (no super religious but belive in God) since prayed for her to comeback. I feel like a but of a joke. I'm trying to keeps myself busy (job) and indulging in hobbies (gaming /friends) but don't know.

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