Waking up is really rough, I guess some of the "normal" anxiety is wearing off now. So now when i wake up and realize oh yeah I'm on this couch, in this room, in this house, that isn't mine, and she isn't here. Crap. It gets me all worked up again. In a way I guess it okay, I need reminded daily on what happened, so I can keep telling my self "I am a work in progress, it is going to take time." But I still have a life to live, I still have a job to do. It's going to take time to accept that I am not in control of the situation. Divorce is a two sided thing. You gotta make peace with the situation, dont have to like it. But if you are understanding. Things will get easier. Hang in there me. Still got a lot more to life than this.