Am currently going through trying to understand and realize that we are really going to be divorced. My wife of 5 years and I have had ups and downs throughout the marriage but we had always tried to work things out or so I thought. Like most women, they are really good at keeping things in for years until breaking point. After focusing 100% on my marriage and growing the last year, she decided she does not want to stay. She also cheated on me and started talking to the guy over a year ago. Sad I was trying for nothing, but I love her so much and still have suicidal thoughts sometimes. How to you get the fuck back up? I just love her so much. Also we just started a 1 year lease that they won't let us break. Have any of you successfully lived in separate rooms with with your ex-wife during the process? I love her family so much and she loves mine. It's going to be so fucking hard.