Please give me some guidance and I do apologise if this is a bit long Am a male 29 and my wife is 30 we met when we were 17 and became friends and then that developed into a relationship, we have been together for 13 years and married for 7 She lived with me in Dubai for 2 years but never got on with my family or the community as they're closed minded and stuck in their old ways so we decided to come to England and live with her parents, during this period we lived for nearly 5 years with them and naturally I had to become very agreeable as she knew the in's and out's of her birth place and she had the support of her parents

• shortly after we got married she asked for a baby and I wasn't ready as I was 21 and have not matured or thought of myself as a dad but friendly persistence made me agree

• we had an amazing little boy who's nearly 6 years old now and I adore him

Her parents were very welcoming and supportive as she's the only daughter

• we did have countless arguments concerning my family and their drama but I learnt how to control my temper and reason and also I didn't have my own house or my own rules to be able to set the boundaries and the way she lost her femininity as a wife with her arguments widened the distance between us

• I ended up cutting contact with my mother completely and barley have any relationship with my 2 sisters or my dad

• I eventually realised that am repressing myself and am not happy with her

• our sex life is next to nothing as I don't feel attracted to her anymore, and when we do have sex which is rare I feel a bit sick afterwards, or some sort of regret

• she let herself go and even though I told her how much it means to me to keep in shape as were only young, I go to the gym regularly and I tried taking her to the gym which she only did for one day and stopped and we have a running machine in the house but every attempt failed and our sex life became exhausting

• we recently got a mortgage and as she chose the house I agreed even though its expensive for a first house but we moved in shortly after that I changed as I was not restricted on how to behave or how to act and I blindsided her and I realised that I've lost my feelings for her completely

• She's a very good wife and mother she's a family person and never cheated

• I think I have been very agreeable on the determined of my own mental health and I don't want this life anymore but I can't leave her to struggle with the mortgage and I don't want to leave my son devastated

• I haven't told her that I want to separate but am willing to pay the majority of her mortgage every month just to keep the house for her and my son I don't want to her get back to her parents house disappointed and having to live by their rules as shes 30 and its not fair on her

• I haven't gathered the strength to tell her because I don't know what happens next this is the only serious relationship I had which got this far from 17 years old to 29 and am an ameture on these things

• and I don't have family here for support (not financially but mentally)

Please give me some guidance What happens next and how can I cope