Well the pin was pulled and the grenade thrown. She cross a line and pushed too much. We sat down yesterday and she agreed to the divorce without fighting it. Now Im sitting here 12 hours later with such mixed emtions. Heavy weight lifted off my shoulders, scared out of my mind being alone for the 1st time ever, starting over again for the 2nd time at 48yo, and then of course at sometime starting over again with someone. Its bad enough I have been cheated on, mentally abused, emtionally abused, financial abused, etc. There has got to be something wrong with my brain and/or heart. I know I need do some healing and self reflection. Not to mention a serious look at my paradigm for chosing a partner.

Guess Im looking for any words of advice on where to take the next step in this new chapter?