I just got back from getting all my stuff from the house. Seeing her again so triggering. She ended the marriage because I had a hard relapse not just with alcohol but also gambling and porn and kept it hidden for a year. I know it's bad and I regret it immensely but I am still in love with her. I f'd up badly and I know there's nothing I can do now. I also think she's an "avoidant dismissive" in terms of attachment style and I've heard once they make up their mind that door is shut! I cried all the way home and am a total wreck. I feel like I lost the love of my life and will be alone for the rest of my life. I'm only 2 months in but it is so painful. When does it get better? And are there any stories of reconciliation out there?