I’m new to this even the whole posting about my situation. I was in a 15 year marriage. Which became loveless and almost 0 intimacy. We have 3 kiddos. Luckily we are civil about everything that comes to them. But part of me still feels wrong for it all. I technically am the cause I looked elsewhere for love and affection. I didn’t do anything but I attempted to chat to girls. This happened usually after I’d be told my ex was too busy to step away from her computer to spend time with me after I’ve been out for work all day (she edits) and then even when I’d go on work trips and be gone for over a week and I’d come back. I’d come back to nothing. Just hi. I’d made my frustrations aware and all I’d get is if you’re unhappy go. I tried to reignite the romance. I tried it all and she tried for a little then went back to her ways. We’ve been separated for about 8 months now. She started hanging out with one of her old friends and now they caught feelings for one another which I was like whatever but once I heard how she spent time to hang out and wasn’t hooked to her computer I started to feel semi depressed. That’s all I ever wanted. I always asked/begged for affection and time and I’d get oh you’re a chick or you’re too emotional. And then when it came to sex it was horrible trying to get it from her. Sometimes she’d just lay there and be like go ahead and it’s like who wants that kind of sex???? But when she randomly got in the mood I just had to do it for her. No exceptions. Idk if I should still be dwelling on it all. I’m sure other guys have gone through this. Any advice?