Separted from wife(27f) for 4 months. I (30M) have been in a bit of a spiral these past few days. Broke "no contact" whatever that is after about a month. Really not into it honestly. When did folks stop fighting for each other? I suppose cause it hurts exponentially more than just chalking it up to a loss and moving on (not to say that isnt its own pain). I can feel it. I was doing moderately OK, now I'm fawning over what could have been. Sitting here cycling through every possible way I could fix this.

I can't fix this. Not for the 2 people we are now. It's over. Didn't even get a reply. I guess I've put my heart out there for the last time.

I need to finish reading No More Mr. Nice Guy. Had to put it down after starting yesterday. First chapter had me feeling more attacked than my counselor in 2 months of therapy.