Just need to get this out there. I'm (31M) going through an ugly divorce with my ex (27F.) We were married for just under 3 years due to me knocking my ex up during dating and wanting to do the right thing. I can say it's initially due to just who I am, I always try and do the right thing.

We married because of the child (now 5) and she was going to carry through, I never wanted kids, that is until my son was born. After my son was born I tried doing everything I could to support him and my (hopefully soon and hereby refered to as ex since only the governmentsays we're married) ex wife.

Most of our marriage I was working 2 jobs, for alone a year not sleeping for 2 days while she was a part time STAHM (I paid and she used daycare) on top of me getting up to care for our son at night. Despite all that I gave my ex cheated and abused me (typical woman I've encountered) which is the reason I filed for divorce.

After filling for divorce she's been boyfriend hopping, having "1" every 2-3 months that she lives with without telling them they're in an "open relationship" whether they like it or not.

We initially agreed to 50/50 custody or the closest we could get with myself starting school. With me background outta the way, I hired a lawyer who costs me a rent payment a month to have the divorce be as clean and painless as possible, but my ex is dragging everything out.

Despite my bring involved a much as I can, keeping him enrolled in the same daycare, taking him out to places to teach him i.e. the zoo, aquarium, fishing, canoeing, exct. My ex wants me cut outta his life completely, she wants me to have only 1 monthly supervised visit for a day every month and 2 weeks over the summer.

All I want is our son to have a relationship with both his mom and myself. I don't talk about how mom with him at all yet he is constantly telling me how his mom is calling me all types of thing like dumb and unloving.

I'm doing everything I can to follow the rules, to be the best dad I can. Most importantly to raise our son to have more opportunities and to be better than me, but our son constantly says how he doesn't want to be with me, doesn't love or miss me, and other things that just hurt as a father.

The thing that broke me and makes me question if any of the pain I'm going through are with it is during my sons VPK graduation my ex brought her new boyfriend of the month and my son only paid attention to them. He ran to my ex and he be boyfriend ignoring myself and my family who've been there constantly since his birth while the new boyfriend hasn't been there more than 2 months.

I'm just debating if the fights worth it in the end.