hi, i am the person that made the post about gaining positions of power in real life on a new account now because i deleted my last one due to unpleasant interactions. I am a 16 year old male and I have been exposed to so much misandry in the past few years both online and irl that it is genuinely making me suicidal and feel worthless and hated. I have gone off social media for long periods of time but the patterns were still there, the biases the double standards and whatnot which eventually leads me to come back here so i can know there are people aware of it. The way the female gender is viewed compared to males makes me envious depressed and lowers my self esteem to the point where in my head i try to reverse it and pretend i live in that world but of course, reality will always pull me out of that peace. I often find my life loses meaning and i am just straight up suicidal because of it. I have self harmed a lot in the past and even ended up hospitalized once because of it but of course i couldnt tell them why. i drink to cope sometimes after my parents are asleep but i feel like it will only get worse as i get older. I guess making this post is just another way of coping but i just want to be heard somewhere, i dont like using this app/site too much as i often get a lot of negative responses to comments or posts but i cant hold this one in, i feel very alone in how i feel.