I've realized that I am in no dilemma, and I am he one to blame. I keep resenting myself and blame those things for why I don't have a girlfriend. There are men that are more toxic than I am, but the thing I lack that they have is the willingness to try. Sure, they may be disgusting, but at least they try. I keep clouding my mind with what women might think of me when I know I won't do anything wrong by just being honest with how attracted I am to them. All I have to do is just find a girl I like, talk to them, and ask for their number.

I was wrong about my height holding me back. It doesn't, and my height is for girls who either like it or don't care about it. My looks are fine too. In fact, I think I'm cute asf (I could dm you a pic if u want to be the judge of that). The only thing I need right now is a haircut. Maybe being short makes me more feminine or something, but there's nothing wrong with that. I don't see why that would be unattractive for a guy. Many have also said that I have nice skin, a nice voice, that I dress nice and that I'm funny.

I'm just gonna stop caring at this point and be me, as there is nothing wrong with me, except the blackpill shit I can't let go of. My GPA is 3.77 and I'm on the fucking honor roll for my faculty. I finally paid off this semester's tuition. My mom gave me back my Bluetooth earpieces. Soon enough, I'll be able to get scholarships and send myself to school for another year and buy myself some more stuff in case there's money leftover. There's prolly more good things that are about to happen down the road, but you get the idea. With all these good things happening to me, why the fuck am I worrying about whether or not I'm gonna get a girlfriend? In fact, there has to be at least one girl who would want me.

Next semester, I'm gonna actually approach more girls. I don't care what their reactions are gonna be, cuz shame is a bitch. I have so much that's appealing, and the fact that I've been in a relationship before proves that I'm likeable.