I have been in my relationship for 8 month and honestly the relationship everything thing I could ask for she treats me like a king is supportive and sex everyday I can barely keep up. She grows with me and I couldn’t ask for more. But once we got comfortable into the relationship. A friend caught wind that I was seeing her and told me she was a stripper in high school. I didn’t believe him at all. I laughed about it. Then he said he was serious.

I asked her and she told me it was true. She said she wanted to tell me but since it was so early In the relationship she wasn’t comfortable with it yet. Also was probably afraid how I might take it. At the time it completely ruined her innocent personally to me. I honestly couldn’t and can’t even picture it after being with her. She’s now 33 so this was over 12 years ago probably. I tried to accept it because honestly it was one of the only red flags I had seen for her. But months down the road it keeps popping into my head. Her stripping for other men. Walking around naked in public. Etc.

She said she regrets it so bad. And it haunts her till this day. She said no one ever told her it would ruin her reputation or she would pay for it. She just saw it as a quick way to make money for college. At the time she said it seemed innocent bc she wasn’t sleeping with anyone or anything. But now she doesn’t get how she could be so stupid not to see it. And she regrets it.

I loved hearing that but every time a stripper scene comes on in a move. Or in a song. Or random times. It pops in my head and I dwell on it. I can’t seem to get the fuck over it. And I don’t know why. The though of it makes me sick. Can someone give me a different perspective on this or a way to get over this already??