Hello everybody, it's nice to see a subreddit like this. It makes my faith on humanity increasing. I don't know if this post is worthy of be posted but here is my story. Excuse me for my grammar mistakes, I'm not a native speaker. Correct me if I make one please, I'm still learning. My story begins when I was twelve years old, I was a freshman on high school(there is no middle school on my country). I was a kind of a weird girl, while I was there, some girls bullied me (one of them was my ''bestfriend'' since early childhoold), the harassment went too far that I even had to moved on to another school. When I was in the new place I was so hurt by the bullying that despite of making some friends I was bitter, my views on women were decaying. I started to have some misogynist thoughts, I used to think of them like people who were deceiptful, evil, whores... every bad adjective that you can think of. When I was with my new friends I felt that I didn't connected with them, they were the classic girly girls who only talked about boys, make up and clothes, most of the time I was quiet, I only listened to them and exchange few words sometimes because I didn't share their interests. This fueled my conclussions that women had something wrong within them.

I decided to search on the internet for sites that thought like me and I found a blog called Judgybitch and I went down the rabbit's hole. I learned all the Redpill ''theory'', how they viewed men and women and their relationship between each other. When I lurked on such places I felt weird, they were talking about my gender very badly but I was pleased that there were people like me. It was like they weren't insulting me because I was not like the other women, or this I had thought.

The time passed on and I finally graduated of highschool. During the last summer I lost all my friends made on the past except one. I met her more and finally became best friends. I hung out with her everyday and I started to feel some things for her, it was love, not friendship love kind, but romantic love. And my brain became a muyahidin and blowed itself. I was horrified by this feeling, I tried to become straight because according of the redpillers I was broken and a manhating fat bulldyke and a whore who needs a good dicking, but it wasn't possible because I was a female who was a unicorn according to them, I'm not fat, nor a bulldyke (with respects to bulldykes, there is nothing wrong with that) and I saw men like demigods who couldn't do nothing wrong and I was celibate. Despite of my family's acceptance I wasn't happy. At this time I began to awake myself and the most important thing to think instead of feeling rage. How can I hate the people who I'm attracted? Which side of the redpill relationship's roles should I take with a girl? The heartless douchebag or the brainless stepford wive? How can I say with a straight face to my mother and my sister that they are shameless bastards? How could I be so self-hating that Uncle Ruckus and Danny Burros would facepalm at me? How anything of these happened?

And I finally get it, it was the bullying, these girls hurted me so much that i became a self hating misogynist and they were only 6 of the almost 4 billion of women that there are on the world. I catched the redpill train when I was devastated. I have opened my mind since then, I learned that no matter of gender, race, nationality, sexual orientation people can be evil and good, there is no monopoly of good and bad cualities in any social group, everyone can be deceiptful or loyal, good or bad no matter of what. That's how the redpill and cults work. They catch people on their bad moments and promise them the paradise on earth but they descend them into the hell. The redpill may have some few redeeming cualities but the garbage overshine them that it becomes insignificant. You can find the same good advices that they give on any other self helping sites and groups without the madness and hatred. If you have brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, friends or anyone who fell out into the redpill don't be passive, act now, don't let them fall, help them and make them notice that they are wonderful people who don't need a crazy cult to feel good about themselves. Girls are their last problem, it's their self steem, no man or woman who respects itself fall for half baked theories and conclussions (AWALT, AMOG, frame and stupid shit like that) in order to feel good. Help them to become the person they want to be and love them, they need your love.

The both sides of the gender wars are throwing shit, instead of helping and understanding each other. How can we solve the problems that men (the injustice of divorce, the hidden domestic and sexual male violence by women) and women (middle east, enough said) face daily if we only fight each other? We don't have to talk about byzantine discussions because saying that women are whores and men are violent rapists (according to crazy feminazis) doesn't going to solve these problems. We need to be a team, not rivals. Thank you for reading. I needed to throw it out. TLDR: Female Uncle Ruckus was misogynist because of bullying and redeem herself, help your people if they fall into the redpill and gender wars are bullshit and pointless.