I'm feeling lost after having had fun with a couple of girls that were in the same gathering as I was for around 2-3 days. I was attracted to the first one but did not know her pretty well and this was my first time meeting her(let's call her girl1). Another girl who was closely related (sister) to this girl was physically more attractive but that wasn't what I was after, let's call her girl2. I started playing the games I learned from trp and started manipulating them(that's what I thought in my head) eg. Feeling buffed up, alpha etc. The girl I was attracted to seemed to be unable to think clearly or from her own mind so I decided to play this game. I showed signs of attraction to the second girl which she reciprocated and then asked the first girl for her social media account. This would've probably hurt the second girl and she would've nudged the first one to not talk to me or something on that line. I messaged girl1 but did not receive any reply, she is quite shy. I don't know why I did what I did, but now this thing haunts me that I might have hurt her psychologically playing these shitty games. Have been reading the red pill for a long time and recently found exredpill and I tell you that it is quite depressing to see the lies that I feed myself. I want to free myself from these lies and see more clearly rather than analyzing human emotions so deeply to the point that you start assuming things that aren't there and end up playing with yourself.