So I date online exclusively through community servers, etc.

From what in seems is that I'm more physically attractive to guys than I am girls. (despite that I look masculine).

I've had guys literally tell me that if they were gay that they'd marry me. Numerous guys have made passes at me, yet my luck with a mentally stable girls is slime to none. And even when we match up, I'm too ugly for them.

I'm not here to make a hateful comment I'm just confused.

It's honestly an insulting existence because when I date guys, I'm seen as gross or an unholy abomination. But I get talked down to by a good few of women.

And you would think leaving the Redpill and incel community, helping other people leave would be enough for me to be satisfied with life but I'm not. I'm emotionally starved. I want the ability to have a wife and kids, as fun as dating gay is, I just don't have what I want.

It sometimes makes me doubt the theory that red pill is wrong at least with the social status portion.

Does anyone understand the reason to this? I'm not a very threatening looking person so I don't understand why I'm failing so miserably when it comes to girls, yet guys practically throw themselves at me.

I would put this in another dating advice sub but I feel it's better here than somewhere else.

I'm not inherently upset by the circumstances I'm just in need of answers.