Tw: rape/bdsm/nsfw

I saw the post about the actor from Call me by your name and BDSM, and it reminded me of how traumatizing BDSM was for me in my experience, especially since I only consented to a kiss and every time I tried to move away I was physically forced to continue. Anyways, before FDS and before I really got my shit together, I had gotten together with a guy over this last summer and he tried to do BDSM with me over the phone and said it would help me heal (? Broke up with him the day after) and it really reminded me of how many bad memories it unlocked. Like as if BDSM is to be seen as the consensual rape fantasy and it's so disgusting. I felt disgusted with myself for the longest time for letting that happen, and I hate that I have to live with these unwanted memories. I tried to research this topic, but this disaster of a world gave me articles as to how BDSM "cured" their PTSD.

This brings me to my question for you queens, do you think that BDSM can cause/trigger PTSD? Or is it just a coincidence because I don't want to self diagnose it unprofessionally and I haven't found any credible sources to prove it (yet)

Thanks for reading, I hope you have a safe day!