I was doing so well with no longer acknowledging men, I ghosted a FWB earlier this year, things were going great. Then the rona hit and I fell out of my routine and after 3 months of my LVM ex contacting me I caved and saw him 2 weeks ago. Kept my distance the whole time, did not "watch a movie." Tbh the attention was nice. Especially bc during our "relationship" 2 years ago I was the fuckboy who refused to commit and dumped him when he told me he loved me 🤦🏼‍♀ not nice of me but he's a LVM for other reasons. But the memory of him wanting to be with me so bad is awfully nice. So last year I found out he was back together with his ex gf and went crazy. Literally had no interest in him until I found out they got back together and the jealousy killed me. I called him and asked him to break up with his girlfriend 🤦🏼‍♀️ really awful and embarrassing. Anyway that was last year, they broke up earlier this year and he's been contacting me. Then when I finally saw him the feelings lowkey started creeping up again. Then we didn't see each other for a few days, until I ran into him last weekend. The kicker: he met someone literally a week ago and now I'm no longer interesting to him. He didn't say it but there's plenty of receipts on his IG story. Lol. Kill me. Literally resisted him for months and then within days of my feelings returning, he finds someone else. The jealousy is so real right now. I feel like a big, ugly clown. He stopped replying a few days ago but I still had his hoodie from 2 weeks ago. So last night I dropped it off in the middle of the night, rang the bell, he opens and says: oh I thought you were other people. Lmao. I just said here's your hoodie, he said he's sorry he didn't reply, I said it's fine. And that was it. I'm so sad right now even though I KNOW it's stupid. We are a terrible match on every level and he recently started smoking again which is a deal breaker for me anyway. Still sad though :( Roast me.