While reading the book 'Complex PTSD from Surviving to Thriving' (great one) I've developed a habbit to cry whenever I feel emotional pain.

It helps. It reduce depression, it reduce anxiety, you feel great afterwards. Much better then after orgasm (arguably)

Traditionally men were not allowed to cry but allowed to be angry and women were not allowed to be angry but allowed to cry. Of course you need to have both - you need to allow yourself to become angry (you don't need to kill anyone or become involved in antisocial behaviour) and you allow yourself to cry.

The modern western world says to you that you may pick only one - The Blue Pill way (crying) or The Red Pill way (being angry).

Crying is the worst choice, of course. When the woman see you crying you immediately prevent her from developing some set of sexual fantasies, so your sexual attractiveness will decrease enormously. (she would fuck random dudes in bars instead). And in order to repress anger you would start to do something like emotional eating which will turn you into fat guy. That's one of the reason why betas are so fat - they are not allowed to express anger at their master.

In case of The Red Pill you are not able to express sadness. You are not allowed to feel down, feel depression, etc. So you'll probably use drinking in order to numb yourself. Lifting helps to express the anger but never to express sadness.

Conclusion: Stay MGTOW. Fuck them. Your mental health is precious. Chances are you'll probably never find a normal woman who would be ok with you expressing both anger and tears.