TL:DR Did I find a unicorn or am I trapped in the matrix?

Ever since I found this sub by accident months ago I haven't been able to put it down. I look at women and relationships completely different than I used to, but I do have some curiosity and will probably get a lot of flak for this.

I got married young, 20 actually. I fell in love after I got out of medic school with a woman I went to high school with. She was in college, working part time, eventually she moved in with me. We were together for a year, then got married a few months after my 20th. I only stayed married to her for a year. She quit school, stopped working, wouldn't even cook or clean the house while I was working 17 hour shifts on an ambulance. My resentment for her grew so large and so fast I began to hate her. A month prior to dropping the divorce bomb, surprise, she's pregnant. She later admitted she felt me distancing myself and got pregnant on purpose, baby trapped, but that's another story.

We get divorced. While separated I'm dating this woman, a year older than me, divorced herself. She's a software developer, has a college degree, owned her own house (she bought and paid for), is extremely intelligent and beautiful on top of it all. She is also very conservative. We progressively start spending more and more time together, she eventually moves in with me. After my divorce is final we get engaged. Around this time I became disabled, surprisingly, she stays.

In fact, she bought her engagement ring that I picked out, her wedding band, my wedding band, and didn't flinch. Her preacher married us with few present. At this point I'm struggling to hold down any job. My EMS career is over and I'm not sure what to even do. She is supportive, and we continue on. Eventually we decide to have our own child. A few months later, she's pregnant and then gives birth to our amazing son. He is now 3. Here it is, years later, I'm still struggling to hold down any type of work. To be honest o feel like a parasite, feel free to give me as much shit as you seem necessary. My disability makes it very difficult, also another story.

She works, pays the bills, comes home straight from work everyday, cooks, helps take care of our son, and doesn't go out, be it to party or be with friends. She is happy, fucks me like a rabid animal, and is an amazing mother. Don't be mistaken, we disagree, we fight, and they have been pretty bad a time or two.

This is not a LARP. What's the deal MGTOW? Do you believe in unicorns? Am I trapped in the matrix? Am I in a dream like coma? She is aware of this sub and reads it with me from time to time, she has a good laugh at thots with me, and will probably see this.

Cheers