Fiancée doesn’t trust me because I won’t delete a recording of her falsely accusing me of domestic abuse

This shit is so beyond fucked. I can’t believe this happened. My partner of 9 years busted through a door I was tryin to barricade myself behind because I was scared that she would get violent with me based off of the fact that she was violently SCREAMING my name over and over (for what reason I have no fucking idea) and has tried to beat doors down I locked myself behind before.

She busts the door down, grabs my throat, tried to choke me, and push me with her hand around my throat, all while grimacing her teeth.

I was quite in shock. DID YOU JUST PUT YOUR FUCKING HANDS ON ME!? She had, up until this point, never put her hands on me, nor have I ever put my hands on her. We do have pretty intense screaming matches, fairly frequently, but it has NEVER turned physical.

So I decided to feign a domestic abuse “call” to the police, though I was really just recording my own voice.

Well, at this point she is fully under the impression that I am going to press charges, and as far as she knew, I had actually called the police.

I felt the need to be able to protect myself so I continued to record our conversation. At this point, she adamantly denies putting her hands around my neck trying to choke me and, knowing I was recording, started going off about how I constantly get physically violent with me (she thinks she’s going down, so she starts completely making false claims of abuse towards me to take me down too. Over and over again I pressed her. She, thinking it would save her own ass and make me look like the abuser, continued to lie and told me two of her female friends “know” that I “hit her” “all the time.” This is complete horse shit because I have NEVER laid a finger on her in anger.

She started belittling and mocking me, “oohhh, poor baby! Look, there are no marks on your neck so you can’t prove anything.” (Ironic, huh?)

She LET ME HAVE IT. She thought that it was going to be used in court (she at this point didn’t know that I only feigned reporting her) so she tried to take me down by lying over and over and over that I physically abuse her regularly.

I have her caught in so many false allegations and she KNOWS they are bullshit . I have the ENTIRE thing recorded.

So when she found out that I only feigned the call, now she “just can’t trust me” and is upset that I lied about calling the cops; yes, you read that correctly, SHE can’t trust ME because I lied and said I reported her for trying to choke me. And now she can’t trust me because I won’t delete the recordings of her literally trying to send me to prison. (I have them backed up in the cloud several places). She called her brother and his recommendation was to take my phone and throw it in the bathtub to destroy the recordings. At this point, she has no idea I am actually listening to her conversation with her brother, and I hear her say “I can’t; he changed his passcode.” THIS FUCKING BITCH TRIED TO GO THROUGH MY PHONE TO DELETE THE RECORDINGS OF HER MAKING FALSE CLAIMS THAT I BEAT HER and BRAGGING that she was going to take me out and “poor little baby...such a victim...” mocking me.

I cannot believe that someone whom I thought I could trust just threw me under the bus in an attempt to falsify domestic violence charges because she thought the Recording was going to be used against her in court.

Unbelievable. I have this whole thing recorded and I need to collect myself and figure out what to do next.

I never in a million years thought that this would happen.