I've been mgtow without even knowing what it was for years. I'm only in college but I met this chick where we hit it off and since we're in a pandemic we just sexted a lot, flirt and talk everyday (she moved out of state because of COVID).

Anyway.. she's been on and off from a relationship that involves a kid (I know, first red flag) and despite that we kept talking until she decided it was enough and should focus on his partner(or even a new guy, who the fuck knows at this point).

The thing is I don't get how this went off for her so easy, her mom died recently and she'd always call me and be there for her because I also considered her as a friend..sort of. I even offered to go see her and she'd always say that she had no time because her kid and other stuff. Now she won't even talk to me at all and I just felt like I kinda fell for her. Been feeeling like shit because I really needed someone to talk to, since an aunt of mine just passed away, but haven't told her this because.. yeah.

The thing is now idk what to do now, specially now that she's in most of my classes and I get to see her almost everyday and I just feel like shit. I was even thinking to drop off a semester so just I don't have to study with her but now that I think about it it sounds stupid. I'm really not sure how to act here and recover from all this bs.

TLDR: Made lots of plans and hard flirted/had feelings with chick with an on/off relationship and she randomly decides that she just wants to "focus on herself" and not even talk to me again. Wondering how to get over things and how to act since she's in all of my uni classes.

Sry if I sound dumb here, but I just want to get over everything and not feel like shit and still go mgtow like I always did